dark side in me..

i have once in my life have this kind of hatred to the people near me..you know the feeling of jealousy and kind of disgusted even the person is your friends.. did u all have this kind of feeling.. i admit that nobody perfect.. i am a kind of.. im a messy clumsy ugly lazy person.. all that bad stuff get to me.. then i realized i should dig out my weakness and try to improve.. no body perfect but we can try ourbest!! ganbatte kudasai!!! hahahah like the japanese said..

           i have a frens ... quite close to me.. at first she look likes very kind and sweet but then somehow she change.. she likes to talk about herself what she doing ,how she feels and nyet nyetn yet to me .. if for an hour i think its ok.. but everytime u meet her she keep talking about thatthe same thing 24 hours ouhhh its miserable...(sape boleh tahan la macha) u r matured enough u should know that that there are other people outside there with much worst problems..  stop nyet nyet nyet and try to motivate yourself u know that there are a saying that said "org yg pandai suke berckp tentang ilmu org yg sederhana suke berckp tntng peristiwa org yg tak berilmu suke bercakap tentang diri sendiri.. :!!!  i said that to people but actually i have it myself.. ok its time to dig my weakness...
yes!! sometimes me too.. i like to tell that to people all about the family things and problem to people.. i should realize that ,they too, have their own family problems.. then what else.. hah! i like to sleep and also a shopaholic.. i am still trying to control it.. its really difficult .. else than im always shy .. especiaally at class.. at class i supposed to give the answer, my idea.. but somehow it has in my head but its stuck in my mouth i cant speak it out... also dream  that never come true.. i just talk big but never done big things. as when i am form five student i said i want to be a doctor but i never study hard.. until matriculation.. i got very dissapointed result.. and then now in um i said i want to get into deanlist.. but then stilll.. what did i do..facebooking, skyping,wasting times and i always procrastinate.. aahhh i do that tomorrow tommorrow and then until the due date asish.. ainy .. ainy .. when u want improve.. its now!!!! i should start now..ok .. ganbatte kudasai!!!!
about my frens .. wether they know or not.. ill try to be the best to them coz they are the best frens to me.. its just... we are  people we have feelings.. and because of that together we keep go on and go on..i think i have many other bad habit.. ill try to trace its as i didnt see much above.. come on ganbatte kudasai!!!!!!

GaNbaTTe KuDasAI